poem 2

Realizations  

I’ve realized I lost myself in the people I love, piece by piece by piece.

 And I’ve became so blind to the point where I couldn’t even recognize it.

 I loved you... I did. 

I think I’m so angry because of the fact that I didn’t get the chance to tell you I loved you.

 I loved everything about you... flaws & all. and you see even that doesn't sit right with me because thinking back I told you I loved you but you just didn't believe . It took me walking out of your life for you to actually feel the leaking holes of the blood that you was bleeding.

And I told you I hate feelings ... real feelings ... 

Shit you could only feel when you go through it.

 This shit is sickening and too much . But, this is real something you might call love.

  I’d be lying if I said I didn’t think about you at night . Head wrapped in my bonnet singing love songs and getting clues that might...

 Maybe fuck with me in the head.

 But I’m craving you instead, I’m craving some head , I crave you in depth. I’m overly stressed I think I need my rest and you’d be the one to give it to me best.

 Always there to comfort me and point out qualities and traits in me that other people don’t get in me , talk to me differently because you see the potential in me .

 You know I’m out here different because there’s no other bitch like me. And I say that with all confidence behind me. I’m something like your Bonnie.

 Do you see it now?

 Cuz you stay besides me. 

Yes I’m hurt and that’s true... but I wouldn’t have found myself if I didn’t find you... 

So, let me give you a clue . 

I'm blue ... without who?

 I think that's you .

 So stop playing games let me love you already !

 I played all these stupid love songs and this Don got me feeling all Dizzy. 

Here goes that feeling again ... 

that feeling of realizations ...

 I'm realizing that it's always gonna be you. 

~TheGxldenAsia