golden talks

 here I want you guys to understand I just gave you raw real emotion this isn't anything that was typed up in advance 

"I'm sorry I hurt you, please forgive me. I won't ask if we can try it again, or if you can still love me. I'll forever despise the part of me that so much as thought about hurting you. Forgiveness is all I ask; for if you agree to forget I ever did it to you means somewhere deep down, you still care for me."

I see what you do…
I hear what you say...

you keep me from running away
with your arms wide open
and your lips that keep kissing
you hold my heart oh so gently...

and with your touch you melt me down.
you're never afraid to clown around,
you keep me laughing,
you keep me smiling,
and there is no doubt
you keep me loving.

Having a heart that bleeds for the people you love, having a heart that beats with passion, having a heart that is selfless despite brokenness, having a heart that doesn’t quit. That’s nothing to be ashamed of. It’s something to be proud of.

“I’m sorry I couldn’t love you in the way you needed to be loved.”

thats the last conversation I can remember that we had held.

And everything about you is a curse, I’m drawn to you in unexplainable ways that drive me to insanity.  You bring me To the edge of love, I’m afraid I might fall. And become transfixed once and for all.

Missing You... That's not something that we do.

I miss you

yeah I scratched that. 

I miss the person you once were...
The way you low key grab my hand
The way you intentionally wrap your arms around me
The way you talk about your most favorite hobby
The way you share your unforgettable experiences
All those goodnight messages
All those surprise morning letters
I remember our late night conversations
I remember the secret visits
I remember the warmth of your hugs
I remember the sincerity of your goodbye kisses
Whenever I look at your eyes, I could see my future in an instance

Cold. 
Heartless. 
Heartbroken. 
Destroyed. 

You caused me pain and wouldn’t even care if I was 6 feet under because to you 
Oh yeah… to you… this is a game.

I know better than to expect compassion and understanding from you; you're incapable of giving it.
I'm in love with self-destruction,

And It’s impossible to worry about someone else drowning when you have a small hole in your boat itself.
Give me one scenario where I win, just one, and I'll love  forever… because I deserve it 


and you are not it.