Poem 16: Of Course I'm Hurt

I watched you ; the person i was in love with show another bitch with no hesitation the love i deserved to get. 

Probably the only thing you can really do to break me, you know.? You listened to everything I’ve been through then you put me through it . The main reason why us females be yelling “Fuck niggas” because we can’t trust niggas . 

It’s mostly because of niggas like you, niggas that turn around and do the shit that you do. niggas that turn around and play booboo the fool , and kudos to you , you got your cake and really been eating too.! 

I’m not gonna sit here and just bash you but I’m hurt , and in so much pain and i start to realize why females have it in their heads that you niggas is all the same. 

I trusted you, can i get my trust back ?

 And i fell for you but i guess you didn’t fall back

 because if you did you wouldn’t have put me in a situation like this. Got my hopes up for this , then turn around and broke my heart and shit. 

       I guess I’m half to blame because my friends told me i shouldn’t have trusted you, they told me you were nothing but an issue, you see i should have dismissed you. I gave you the benefit of the doubt and you broke me, telling me you were different and honestly you really did show me. So, let me give you a round of applause, because good actors like you deserve that. 

Now go ahead and take that bow and go laugh with the boys cuz’ you played me like a clown. 

I guess it’s true good girls like me get hurt , the good ones are the ones that go through the worst . So go ahead and get that award. Hope it was worth my heartbreak. 

imma beg you. 
Please. 
Please don’t ask me if I’m okay, i might do something stupid like open up to you and I’m tired of getting close to people and watching them leave me like I’m nothing. 
Don’t ask me if I’m okay because I may  be forced to lie to you and tell you “yes” with a smile on my face. 

You was asked about today. 

I never seen a smile drop so quick and someone appear so numb the way my shit spun. I’m hurt, you did that. Although you apologized a thousand times and I openly appreciate and respect that I just feel like there’s pieces of me I still won’t get back. 

I’m numb and you caused that. Stiff to all of these niggas and talk to them like they my throwbacks. 
You know ? Tbt . Yeah I'll do the next nigga how you did me , she , her , them , us . Damn.
 I can’t even count. 

But I heard it was a good amount. So of course I’m hurt you apologized too late. And I hope the next nigga that do take your place ends up being great. 

This is a letter to you ... of course I’m hurt...
 part two didn’t send out a trigger in you and that’s nothing new but we have deeper news and I don’t know if it means something to you. But to me, you do and I’m feeling kinda blue 
A little under the weather and I’m writing this letter to you.
 
You’re now my Tbt I told you good & well I’d do the next nigga how you did me ... and sheesh. You was right about me... some day I’d make the right nigga happy, thank God he wasn’t you. My eyes their blue ... bawling out tears from the pain that you caused me fool.
 
Of course if I’m hurt. I got a good nigga who sticks through the worst and your My worst ... a battle for eternity, eternally bleeding and asking for morality. 
God is my witness when I say death is the only option a heartbreak from you was never part of the subject. 
And I’m scared ... I’ll openly admit that loving on the next nigga stings more than what you did, that’s facts. 
Of course I’m hurt and your to blame I have a new nigga and he’s more than great. I have a new nigga who loves me at my worst and the worst thing is my hearts so numb and I don’t even want one.